when u feel so stressed and not at the same time.
stressed because a deadline is looming. while the other part of me says, it's ok, i can do it.
when you're stressed, but you dont want to do any work.
(ironic, but it happens to me sometimes. at other times, my efficiency is in proportion with my stress levels.)
when u realise that someone is an overly anal fish-meat.
there are times when u need to be a perfectionist, but there are times when it's absolutely unncecessary.
u try to see the person differently, but u just have this negative disdain for unncessary perfectionists.
when the computer lab is fecking noisy. and u wish u can just shut everyone up.
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on another note, this deadline to me is nothing.
this project is a deadline project.
aka, i see not much meaning to this, and mostly BS,
and hopefully producing nice enough graphics.
all that's in my head is the image of me packing to go
home, and spending happy moments back in sg and
phuket.
i feel depressed yet not at the same time.
because i cant do what i really want to do (explore the rest of hk), and tied back by something (deadline).
and being rather hurt by being told that my standards are 'whatever'.
"it's not just 'whatever'. i'm being necessarily whatever. it's not that important to be that accurate, because figures / numbers are mere indications on a map and are rounded up or down to the first decimal anyway. besides, working in a wind tunnel at fecking 5am in the morning is not fun at all."
while i hold this particular person in rather high esteem because he / she is atrociously hardworking, and able to have good designs / drawing skills / analytical skills, etc. but on another note, i can't help but feel that he / she will have high-blood pressure or any stress-related diseases sooner than me because of some anal behaviour.
so.
in the most cheryl-like behaviour...
whatever.
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i realised 2 days ago..
that God has blessed me in a special way..
throughout my 3-4 months in HK,
i have NOT fallen sick even once.
despite the so-called high pollution levels experienced here,
the closest to being sick was being a tad too heaty.
which was quickly remedied by flushing water through my system.
didnt fall sick even with karin, maggie and shinya around me.
yes they fell sick.karin quite terribly indeed.
Thank you Lord :D
even my horrid cramps which i got during SUBMISSION were gotten over with a half-hour nap.
usually it lasts half a day. woo~
i have drawn so many drawings like never before.
and i feel more confident about sketching my ideas / clearly explain what i'm thinking thru my drawings.
hunfry, faceless girl, and many more (not put up here) were created as well.
when i thought there was a drought in my cartoon drawings.
:D
unfortunately though i dont exactly speak with a singlish accent here.
(most of u would complain, " hey u dont even really speak singlish what!!" or get the ubiqutious question " are u from CHIJ?" because of the way i speak -_-""")my 'accent' here is more ang-moh-fied than ever.
buti feel that my ability to converse properly / pronounce / or issit enunciate? has improved. :P
i still fumble over phasing questions properly sometimes.. but i feel a general improvement..
( i can't ask proper questions because all the fragmented parts of a question come to me ALL AT ONCE in my head, so my mouth takes over my head)but i still miss talking 'normally' with the 'lah-s', 'meh-s', 'dowan-s', 'aiyohhh-s', etc.
so i thank God for all that He has done for me..
even though i have been a bad girl and attended church only once.
but He has blessed me in more ways that i ever imagined..
there are more changes i've experienced than these 4 changes..
heehee..
so i'm really glad that i'm on this exchange..
even though i NEARLY did not make it because of Mr Teo.. *pinch*owww*
but i guess i was (in a way) meant to take this trip out..
and be more confident of myself in many ways possible :D
:D
